Saturday, September 01, 2007
.frIendShip.
Everytime when i want to blog, the words will elude me but when i'm not blogging, the words is like unstoppable..haiyohh...
ok lemme see..had a not so long day today..went to register with dear, asri, ras, ian & chris..so that was when i heard the happiness plus sad news.
Happy that he found another job that with better everything plus bright future except that he will be starting his new job in Japan. He is expecting to settle all the paperworks and will go over there early Oct. Sigh..so sad..Though it will be like a trial period of like one year but still wont get to see hym anytime soon. Its not like i meet hym frequently, but just that..i like him as a frend obviously. I like talking to hym..such a nice guy..one of the brothers that i can say that i'm close too..
As we left the registration place, i try to reminiscence their live together (though i'm not there with them). The five brothers have been together since their teenage days till now and their frendship is so close and so strong. I feel so touch and so in awe that despite having different lifestyles they can still be close up till now. I just hope that though the distance will separate us, just hope that the friendship will not end here. Infact it will only grow stronger, insya'allah.
As for myself i have only one bestie. Though i have other bestgalfrends, she's my only bestie since our teenage life. When i heard that he is going oversea, i suddenly feel my heart stop beating for a second. Imagining when in a few years time she will then leave me for greener pasture sumwhr out there. I was sad n tears start to well up..damn..but not infront of them thou..so sad, having your bestie apart from you sucks..haha..i noe i'm full of drama..but if u have a bestie n she's not dere i think u will feel sucky too..even ryte now she's far awy frm me..well i hurt her..guess i hurt her real bad..until she went off her path..too walk her own new path..
I found her only to lose her again..well it sucks..it sucks big time..though i smile..i'm not really smiling..n though i laft i'm not really lafting..i miss her..dat sumone that i can call my bestie, that sumone who i can say, bedal nak bedal..that sumone who knows what i'm thinking, who knew when i'm down & out, who lafts eventhough she's sad..that sumone who will laft at my crazy antics..i miss her i really do...
Too find out that she did remember me even after those years, really makes me sad..i cant do nuthing..maybe i did not try hard enuf..i dunnoe...
Yah it sucks big time..it's been over three weeks now..n i still miss her still...gd nyte joy.. though i've said it umpteen times..i'm sorry ..i really am...
so now i walk alone, thou dear is walking beside me..my other side is gone and i feel cold..
Saturday, September 01, 2007