Sunday, December 03, 2006

timecheck: 1908
It's been a long long time since i Last update my bLog...been bz i guess or just plain Lazy..ryte now i wld pick d later...heh..
In life we can only pLan and tok big..or is dat onLy me..?? yah i guess it only applies to me..hee..
i've went thru so many phases of my life in just 5 mths..In dis 5 mths i really learn the word frendship, family, love, trust & life..i've seen things in different perspective..try as i mite d me is just not me..i'm still me no matter how much i tried to run & change..but i'm not ashamed..i'm glad i've went thru this phase of wad i termed 'life' .. it tot me alot...
Said and declare things which i believe will be true..which in reality are not..plain illusions on my side..running away doesn't help...i tot it was solve..but lilttle did i realise i was just running away frm life..n now life have caught on to me...5 mths i cried, suffered, went berserk u name it..thinking dat life is mean n cruel dat i'm not meant to loved n be loved...but as life catch up wif me..i found that i'm being love ryte now..yes as i'm typing this up i am being love..by my family, gal frends & him...
As i tiptoed myself back to life, i found him..or did he found n chase me..? i think it will be d later..he found me..d stubborn me to see n realise that i'm still in love wif him...i tot both of us have end it big time..dats it, the end of the road for us...but guess again...guess i was wrong...
Eventhough i've changed n went thru a lot...but i'm still me..Love me for who i am.. i am me.. d stubborn, d playful, d wilful, d dramatic, d un-glamouristiq, d un-pretty..u name it....dun mold me to be other gals...cos i'm different..i hope u realise dat...
In dis 5 mths both of us have our past....n both of us haf to live wif that...i admit its not going to be easy..well nuthing in life is nvr meant to be ez...so many obstacles that have to be over come...n this is one of it..
Hope this is for real..no more rubbishh..d last chance that i'm giving you..dun take my love for granted cos too many times you took it n chuck it away...
Lovingly adores you, madly crazy about you...hope our love will stand strong..insyaállah.. *muacks*
Sunday, December 03, 2006