Wednesday, December 20, 2006
timecheck: 2ambeen raining for days now...so cold..like how i'm feelin ryte now..i'm felin cold ryte up to my soul..not realy in the ryte state of mind..a bit light headed..mayb this is my sorie life..after all dats said..i think i'm not a gd galfrend..if i am, d words won't be said...realy hit straight to home...n suddenly i lose al ctrl..did wad i did years back..too much too much to swollow..how wld u react if wad u think u did was enuf but was not realy enuf in d first place..?? how wld you react if wad u did was not gd enuf...i went crazy...i dunnoe how to react..how shld i react...reality check....i'm nvr gd enuf for anything...not for my sake to keep myself alive...so dissappointed wif myself..i feel so stupid...mayb i am stupid..why can't i be like others who can think for their own...why am i born to be me...stupid...i am so stressed...with work..with family and with love...i can never be wad they want me to be...why is the shoe so big..........n i so small...??when d best that i've given is not enuf how n where shld i turn to for light....
Wednesday, December 20, 2006