Went out to meet my long tyme gf's yesterday. So exciteddd...weee...so besstttt...We met at Plaza Singapura. Aza & Lala..so much change yet still the same..Aza stil d same swet lady still crazy n petite BUT..apetite mcm dinosaur..!!! hehee...my Lalaa..makin cantikk..makin kurus... fewettt..but guys she's attached..!! One's she's single i will make an announcement ok!!

Anw had dinner at Thai Xpress..sawadikapp...hehee..mkn byk..or was aza d only one yg mkn byk..??? hrmm...hehee...But overall d food was sedapp...!! You peeps shld try Thai express out...Went window shopping in the end i really went shopping..nie azalar nie dia yg nak carik kasut org lain yg beli brg..hehee..but it was kewl..after so long..jumpa balik hehehe..

Then chill pat starbucks..not to drink coffee but to tk pictures..!! kekee...*snapsnapsnap*
lps tuu three..hehee...lala went to mk reservations @ rogue..burstday treat for her beloved..soo schwettt... =)

anw smlm penatz abiss...i slpt wif a smile on my face yesterday...
peaceful...finaly... =)

Been putting off writing to u for so long..gues nd to tel u this nd to get this feeling off my chest. Hope it will improve my breathing system..

Friday dated 25/8/2006, he came over my house to apologise to my parents. Didn't expect that frm him, never saw it coming, dun understand why he did it oso..show his sincerity i guess..well was out shoping wif mr ziggy n dat day was quite a hapy day for me..went shopping to marina square, suntec n kind mr ziggy accompanied me half way thru..had dinner at beach road wif mr ziggy..wanted to eat tulang but geezz i cldnt..wait comot!! hehee
Dats dat bila balik was shock when i reach home dat nyte. I am happy ryte now happy that i managed to find my steps again. But then he came back again n now i am not so sure anymore.. The day when i told him i want us to go our separate ways for gd was the day went my heart close its door on him, now i guess it's too late. The door have been closed.

It was nice of him to come over n all but dun u think dat its kinda late, why did it take him soo long..?? Well he wanted a chance.. then by all means, no promise was all i said..i'm too scarred to turn back now at this point.

My family does not help in any way also, they are only making it worst. U see they want me to get back together with him. I am so dissappointed, dissappointed with them. Did they not see how i sufferred? How i fall down on my face n tried to regain it back? Did they not see how hard i tried to be happy again? All they see is aww he is so nice n he have already learn his lesson n i shld 4give him..dis is not the 1st tyme but yet they want us to get back together, pressuring me.. Goodness am i not their own flesh n blood..?? Wads wrong if i say i've found some1 new? Wads wrong if i said i've moved on? Isit wrong?? I tot they wanted me to moved on..but look at wad they are putting me through.. Throughout my 23years in life i've been controlled but have i complained?? No beacuse i understand that it is for my own good..but this is my future that they are talking abt, my marriage, my well being..n my feelings..?? Doesn't any of this matter to them??

I am so dissappointed..so sadd...When u want me u keep me when u dunwan me u chuck me one side..m i a doll?? A ragdoll?? I have my own feelings also but why am i invisible to everyone?? Just because i keep quiet doesn't mean that i'm incapable of any feelings wad soeva...i keep quiet because i dun wan to be rude dun wan to hurt ppl..but ppl always take me for granted.. treat me like i've got no feelings... now i will make my own feelings known..i'm sorry if noone can except it but this is me..d new me, n i'm happy for the new me..

And now when enuf is enuf u came back saying sorry...
Just guess it wun be enuf...enuf said...

strettcchhh..2mths have past byyy...whezzzz....quite fast huh...tyme doesnt stand still for us.. we've let it stand still for us instead..thus wasting precious tyme..
tick tock tick tock..
now after soo lonnggg..hapy againn..wee...hope its for real..not hapi for the fact that i got a boifrend or anything..jus hapy for the fact that i can be hapy and enjoy wad i'm doin ryte now..!!
sooo xcited...starting my new job soon..!! can't wait..guess my new life will begin frm dere...
so yah now i can scream loudly n proudly...I'M HAPPYYY AGGAAAIINNN!!!!! yeayyy...
manage to put all this nonsense shit behind me now...yesshhh...so proud of myself..

*clapclap* =)

"never say gd bye - cos u will never know dat one day mayb u will see each other again.." d beginning of the storyline. Where 2 strangers met accidentally purely by chance & who is only embarking towards a new beginning. Him -Career & Her -Marriage. Litle do they noe that their path will cross again in d near future.

Maya - wad if i find Love after marriage..?? d qns dat goes thru her mind during her wedding day, pushing it aside..well how can dat happen..but it did. Love did happen for her after marriage..n it happen wif Him -Dev.

Two strangers who is in d same situation finds is easier, more comfortable to relate to each other rather than to their own spouses. Feelings start to grow as the day past, torn btw reality n dream will their lurve come out in the open..?? Sad story of love so true. Their own promised partners lurve them with all their heart but yet..but yett...they cld still fall in lurve wif each other.

When death happen in d family, the truth was bared out in the open..marriages distrupted family destroyed. Being too sad or maybe egoistic maya n dev cldnt dare to ask wad was the outcum after the thruth was reveal, thus they got separated. Separated for their own foolishness. But their love for each other never lessen..but perhaps only grew stronger. By fate d truth was brought to light n maya chase after dev..awww aint dat sweet..3 yrs was a long long tyme n this 2 love-stricken lovers were suffering in silence.

A typical hindi-love story but sumting different is in it. I cant really describe it but all i noe is that u must go n watch it for ur ownself. Cos wad i ryte still does not bring justice to this wonderful love story..but dun worry d ending is a happy one...

So go n watch this movie quick..& hope u enjoy it as much as i did...

...KABHI ALVIDA NAA KEHNA

wad shLd i feed u today..Lets c..i was toLd to go home when i reach werk earLy tOday mrng..waste of tyme waste of money..niwae after that..biLa da baLik went to catch a movie..a hindi movie..ehemm...i've watch KABHI ALVIDA NAA KEHNA..!!! weee....
watch it wif my mama,sis & aunties & lil cuzies..so niceee....
It was like so WOW!!! superbly nice...touching..witty..loving..n yah nice larr...!! it's a mus watch movie..cry like baby towards d ending..it is soo touching..imagine shah rukh khan crying..?? tak bleh tahann....sighhh...wanna go n watch it again...!!! worth every bit of my money..


lps two three...hehee..then fizah fetch me at yishun then she came over n stay at my house..slp over..da lamer sey tak buat keje cam gini...woweee...klar dats for now..
aniwae folkss...go n watch KABHI ALVIDA NAA KEHNA !!!! Sooo skoottt...!!!

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace
when you love some one but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

James Morrison - You Give Me Something


recommended by my bumbLebee..
itis soo nicee...sighh

There's another world inside of me That you may never see There's secrets in this life That I can't hide Somewhere in this darkness There's a light that I can't find Maybe it's too far away...Maybe I'm just blind...

...Maybe I'm just blind...

So hold me when I'm here Love me when I'm wrong Hold me when I'm scared And love me when I'm gone Everything I am And everything you need I'll also be the one You wanted me to be I'll never let you down Even if I could I'd give up everything If only for your good So hold me when I'm here Love me when I'm wrong You can hold me when I'm scared You won't always be there So love me when I'm gone

...love me when I'm gone...

When your education x-ray Can not see under my skin I won't tell you a damn thing That I could not tell my friends Roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone Part of me is fighting this But part of me is gone

...So hold me when I'm here...

Love me when I'm gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone...

i'm bored shitLess..Let me ruin this siTe..
Let me bore dis siTe wif my sorry faTe daT i just canT sTop
yawnnzzz...argghhh..borinngg..boringgg..borinngg
fizah dahLing...rescue me pLss...
yawnsss...
precious tyme precious Life..
but i'm not speciaL thou cos if i am then mayb i wun b in dis state..!!
is dere a tyme machine dat i can use..??

yadaa yadaa yadaa yadaa...

d explosion was heard 1st before it can be seen..
it sparkles down on us like stardust like how it was meant to be..
it was wonderful..it was amazing ...i wonder how it was created..
wonder..wonder..
even as i watch d magical explosion i cant help but hope..hope dat mayb sumtin mite b reveal..
i look everywhere..look for sumting dat mite not exist but which i hope mite exists..
i'm not being realistic i noe..but i just cant help it..
its all in my hands but it seems that in my hands its only getting frm bad to worst..
sighhh..i hope n pray dat ryte now i'm in a long sad dream..
dat i mite wake up sudenly n find out dat its al been just a dream..
but its not..i noe it..i slap myself to wake up.. n dats d ting
how can u wake up when u're nvr aslp in d 1st place..??
i feel like screaming but i cant scream
i feel like crying but i cant cry
i feel like running away but i cant
i feel like giving up but i cant
it's all in my brain but my brain is not functioning correctly..
argghhh...i'm sic of al dis..god plss help me..

we can only look at the surface
like d sea whose surface is so calm but yet underneath is so full of turmoil
fast undercurrent that will sweep us away if we were to get caught in it
wad u c is wad u get but is dat wad u perceive..?
understand the key factor..d factor which is lacking..
but no one can understand..
understanding sum1 is to noe them..no comparison needed
diff type of probz face by diff ppl..others mite be more worst off..
but stilll....it hurts so bad dat it makes no diff if there r oters dat is worst off
nuting can b answered..nuting can b solved..
running away doesnt help so then wad will help..??
our story life is like a canvas of painting..we paint our own life..
but prior to that it haf oready been painted..dare u disagree..??
we are just adding more colors to it..
we c wad we want to c..
feel wad we want to feel..
noe wad we want to noe..
but the rest is ignored..
dare u disagree..cos u r one of them...? dare u disagree??
lurve was meant to be sumting beautiful..sumting sacred..
but still it remains to be proven..
so where's d cupid dat is suposed to b werkin..suposed to guard d heart..??
sick in d head sick in d heart sick wereva it wans to be...
n now i m sic...sic n tired..sic of being sic n tired for getting sic..

feeL the aTmosphere changing..
Like the air i breathe in..iT got sTuck in my chesT..
sudenLy i LosT aL reasoning n i dunoe why buT i feeL so aLone & scared..
mayb the reaLiTy of Life..

the reaLiTy of iT aL is sinking in..
i'm soo scared..can'T i sTay This way 4eva?
musT i go Thru dis dae..d dae where Life was given To me..??
i wish i can sLp my way Thru buT guess i cLdn'T..
even now i'm up n awake..
i jusT cLdn'T sLp..iTis soo scaryy..
dun even noe wad i'm afraid of..

LIke a herMiT crab i scury inside my sheLL n hide..

Read this, sad but touching.....Message: can any message be more touching than this?

Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world.
Jasmine: I think so.. All of my friends have boyfriends & we are the only 2 persons left in this world without any special someone in our lives.
Daniel: Yup! I don't know what to do.
Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game.
Daniel: What game?
Jasmine: I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days & you will be my boyfriend.
Daniel: That's a great plan in fact, I don't have anything to do for the following weeks..

DAY 1:They watched their first movie together & were both touched in the romantic film.

DAY 4:They went to the beach & had a picnic... Daniel & Jasmine had their quality time together.

DAY 12:Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they went to a Horror House.. Jasmine was scaredand she tried to touch Daniel's hand but by accident she touched someone else's and they both laughed..

DAY 14:They saw a fortune teller down the road and asked for their future. The fortune teller said: "My darlings, please don't waste the time of your lives... spend your time together happily." Then tears flow from the teller's eyes.

DAY 20:Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor... Jasmine mumbled something.

DAY 28:They rode on a bus and because of the bumpy road, Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by accident.

DAY 29:11:37 pmDaniel & Jasmine were sitting in the park where they first decided to play this game...
Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine... do you want any drinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the road..
Jasmine: Apple juice would be fine,thanks.
Daniel: Wait for me...20 minutes later... a stranger approached Jasmine.
Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?
Jasmine: Yes, why? What happened?
Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel & he is critical in the hospital.

11:57pmThe doctor came out from the emergency room & handed out an apple juice & a letter to Jasmine.
Doctor: We found this in Daniel's pocket.Jasmine read the letter which says:Jasmine, this past few days, I realized you are really a cute girl & I am falling for you.. your cherished smile, your everything when we played this game.. & before this game ends, I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of my life. I love you, Jasmine...Jasmine crumples the paper & shouted.."Daniel! I don't want you to die...I love you... Remember that night we saw a meteor? I mumbled something.. I wished that we would be together forever & never end this game. Please don't leave me, Daniel... I love you, you cannot do this to meThen the clock strikes 12Daniel's heart stop pumping THEN IT WAS THE 30th DAY...

************************************************************************************Always

love your loved ones & show them how you feel before it's too late.. You will never know when they will be gone from your embrace.. If you were given a time to bestow petals of everlasting compassion & love to your love ones, today is the day. Love them while they are still here...

Menatap jalan yang menjauh Tentukan arah yg ku mau Tempatkan aku pada satu Peristiwa yang membuat hati lara

Di dekat engkau aku tenang Sendu matamu penuh tanya Misteri hidup akankah menghilang Dan bahagia di akhir cerita

Cinta tegarkan hatiku Tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau Naluriku berkata Tak ingin terulang lagi Kehilangan cinta hati Bagai raga tak bernyawa

Aku junjung petuamu Cintai dia yang mencintaiku Hati yang dulu belayar Kini telah menepi Bukankah hidup kita Akhirnya harus bahagia

Cinta Biar saja ada Yang terjadi biar saja terjadi Bagai manapun hidup Memang hanya cerita Cerita tentang meninggalkan dengan ditinggalkan Cinta

1st things 1st..2day is my baby sis b'day!! yeayy..she turns 15 today. Ok let's c.. i acted dumb today & totaLy ignore herr.. hehee..Let her tink her bursTday is goin to be duLL..!! ok i noe i'm mean..hehee but i Liokee..in a few hrs she wiLL get her presenTs so Let her brood & tink if she'LL eva get any presents!!! oh yeshh..n dere will be yummylicious food LaTer..her cake haf aLready been bought..can i cut it for her noww..?? *eviL Laughs*

Ok daTs dat..tried to figure how to upload song into this bLog of mine..!! Its making me nuts as to find ways to transfer songss...!!! argghhh...
But finaLLy i did it..but it's stiLL not perfect..so slow to upLoad..need to find other & beTTer resources.. *thinkthink*

my poxy is heaLing i guess..but stiLL sLow to my Liking..even dat yesTerday i step out of the house & went shopping!! hehehe..ehemm shopping for my sis presents lerr...but dun tink dis poxy wiLL spread thou..but ppL aLL Look at me one kind sey..i mean i covered me whole body but my face stiL got the spots so duhh..!! soo gd to be abLe to step out frm d house..!! yippiee...

i want to step out again...hrmmm...mayb nxt week...?? *winkswinks*

Just finis reading a book that i've put off reading for so long. A book by sophie kinsella titLed: can u keep a secret?? . It's a nice book actuaLLy, farnie comedy love story kinda book. As a reader i can't heLp Like saying 'éh dun go n do that'!! hehehe...Like a bit crazy oso i can say myself. This book is good..but hey different reader different taste/opinion.

It's so farnie ryte from the beginning n when it came to the ending part it suddenLy becam sirius..d words they use were not strong but it sounded familiar..

she trying to fit in into lurve, family, frends & werking shoes al at once. Sumtimes lying just to keep the other party hapy even if at the risk of her own hapiness. Rings straight to home..
In a reLtionship i quote " reLationship is aLL abt trust & equality. If é other party share then é other party shLd share too. Its a two way tingy, n u cannot just want to know w/o sharing back in return "

Those are the very basic n the very foundation of a reLationship. ReLationship is not just abt saying i Lurve u n expect to hear the same words in reTurn. It's more then that. And frm this book i reaLise that. Mayb i wun b abLe to put to use wad i've just Learnt but i feeL dat i want to share this extra info..

Sumtimes when we r in a reLationship for too Long we tend to forget why we get together in the 1st pLace. We onLy tend to Look at the big picTure and when we quarreL we Let our ego get in the way. Or sumtimes Like the story character, we Lie. We Lie for the soLe reason that is to keep our partner hapy. but is it worth it? To Lie i mean. A tiny winie lie is ok..but if it's a major one n which will cost é relationship then i tink thats wrong..

Heyy..dun get me wrong..i'm ok..i'm siriusly ok..not whinning or pondering, it's just a re-cap dats aLL..i'm fyne aite..All this are hiccups in Life which made me sum1 different..so yah i'm fyne..

Stttreetcchhh...so yah guess this is it..need to take my medication..goTTa rn..tiLL Later Later..tataaaa.....

finaLy my werk here is done..
weLL i'm stIL experimenting arnd..but yah i guess this isit..

not any IT suave..so was kinda sLow figuring wads wads..
thnks to my chicky pox..i've finaLy managed to get u up & running..

noT much pain now..can move arnd ady..so now planing wad to do for the nxt day..
& d day to come..& d day dats to come afTer d day..et cetera et cetra...
hrmm...

day 1: blogging
day2: stiL blogging
day3: 4eva blogging..
day4: ok i'll stop...

heee....i Like to use up the webby space..dun mind me foLks..
afTer aL i'm high on medicaTion...!!!!!!!! =)