nowe's worLd

yayy..

2008-11-05T16:49:00.004+08:00

I was kinda anxious to know who will win
thou it was pretty obvious
but we can nvr be too sure ryte..
but..he WON..!!
Yes Barack Obama is gg to be the next US President !!
I really hope he will bring about change like he said
cos it's always easier said then done
well..he's d choosen one
so i guess all we can do now is wait and see

on another note
i feel lousy..boo hoo =(
wonder why this year i super stress
n dino n LOV.e is not makin it better cos they r also SICK
i must have gotten d bug from either dino or LOV.e
sniff sniff..

p.s: it's easier to point d blame at others..just so we feel a tiniee winiie better
hehe.. agree...? ok i very the bad gal..i wun blame others for my sorry state..hee..zzzzz
=p

hate u

2008-10-30T17:14:00.000+08:00

and i hate you

end of story
n now i feel slightly better

i love you

2008-10-28T23:02:00.002+08:00

since when you were a day old
i kept u save
kept u save from
mr sun n mr rain
years have passed
and now u r quite a big boy
that when i carry u..i can feel d strain
i noe d problems i noe d pain
but i cant do anything to save you from it
i'm so sorry
that things are not that well
but do know
that i love you
we love you
you can count on us
to always be there
cos we r family

=_(

Y

pakai atau bukak

2008-10-22T11:31:00.000+08:00

pakai pakai
bukak bukak
yang nak pakai tutup likup
yang da pakai ingin bukak
yang nak pakai tak pakai pakai
sungguh keliru
tapi tak ke pelik
yang dah pakai tapi nak bukak..??

i dun mean to blog abt al this
but really this trend is so not becoming

cinta

2008-10-14T09:37:00.001+08:00

.mencari.menjumpai.dan menggenggam

cinta

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the article

2008-10-11T09:00:00.003+08:00

An article from the star:

Polygamy has nothing to do with culture. Men and women cheat because they can. -The Star

WHEN a male friend told me he planned on taking a second wife, all I could do was try not to choke on dinner. Are you serious, I asked. He said yes, he had fallen in love with a single mother, but it was not his fate to marry her..

Thinking it was perhaps due her compassion, her earnest desire to bring up her sprogs in a Godly way and that life was indeed a struggle, I choked on my dessert when my friend told me the first thing he noticed about her was that she owned a great set of jugs. Now, my friend takes his religious obligations very seriously.

His first wife wears the hijab. So to hear him admit that it was his paramour's cleavage that caught his heart was quite shocking. It was due to women like me, whose so-called Western, secular and feminist ideas of polygamy that pushed it underground. I then asked him, whether his equally-pious wife agreed to him taking on another wife, and he said no. She gave him an earful. But our friend was on a roll.

Now that his journey into polygamy was thwarted, it was all our fault. We modern Malay women, be they religious or not, were forcing men like him to marry in Thailand or Iran, where they practised nikah Muta'ah. He was emulating the steps of our good Prophet Mohamed, he argued. "You have got your Islamic history upside down! Nabi married war widows, and his first wife was older than he. Aishah was the youngest. And I don't think our Prophet married any woman because she had great breasts!" "You don't understand." "Okay then. Why don't you sell your car and take a camel to work then?"

I'm realistic. I know men who adore their wives and love them to bits, but they can still love their mistresses and other wives. Am I condoning affairs and polygamy? No. But this happens. It has nothing to do with Islam or being Malay, though polygamy is part of the culture. We're Asians. We have a long history of concubinage.

There are good men who are faithful, and there are good men who have other wives. There are also bad men who are faithful and also bad men who are unfaithful. Just like our politics, love in Malaysia is a circus. Weeee!

I'm not going to bore you with what polygamy in Islam is about, as it has been written before and talked about to death. Women's rights activists have long fought for this "crime" to be illegal, but we face a tough fight. Sometimes it's not the men who are itching for it, but yes, our gender, too. In the 80s, when I was young and clueless, meeting mistresses and second or third wives would be sinful and against my principles. These days? "Oh, you're a mistress?" "Oh, you're a hidden wife?" Yawn. Wear tudung or mini skirt, got. Educated or stupid, got. Some of our mothers are The Other Women, and are good mothers. So how? Is this phenomenon particular to our culture?

Oh no. Read the British newspapers. Mistressing is talked about to death in feminist columns. But I thought after that dinner with my friend, I'd revisit the issue again. Some of the findings from my five-sen survey: Theoretically ... polygamy is OK. But must ikut hukum Allah lah. There are conditions. Ya, but? actually, kan, for career women like us, it does work. Nak jaga laki 24 jam ... gue tak larat la. Biar bini nombor satu jaga. After all, in Islam, polygamous wives are taken care of legally.

Better a Muslim second wife than a common law wife. But really. Think about it. Convenient, what. You see him once a week, makan once a week, have sex once a week... Sex once a week?! Baik tak yah jadi bini nombor dua macam tu! Chit. Once a week mana cukup?! Why do men cheat? Again, just an observation dwelled upon by friends and myself.

For a lot of polygamous men, they marry good women who fit their criteria of holiness, wifeliness and motherhood. Intimacy between the men and their wives are perfunctory. It's make-the-baby-cover-the-face sex. With their girlfriends and second wives, it's Penthouse all the way, baby.

It's the soul thing. At least this is what I got from talking to quite a number of married men. It's not because of the first wives' lack of trying; they want to have healthy intimate lives, but the bees in their husbands's bonnets keep reminding the men of the Madonna-Whore syndrome. Malaysia is not a place for single women desiring Hollywood-movie type of marriages and love. KL especially is a city for marriages and affairs. And it has nothing to do with money. There are rich men who cheat, and I know of a despatch boy who has two wives!

There are many single-again women like my friends and I, who still believe in marriage and love. But I can tell you, should we walk down that path again one day, we're going down it with our eyes open and keep a part of our hearts to ourselves. Because you never know. Perhaps my friend, an activist who makes a living entering and staying in war zones, is right. "We have women like you, me, your mother, your aunt and friend who fight so hard for women and children and yet face a brick wall, simply because we 'understand' so much, and forgive all the time, which is why cheating, affairs and polygamy are rampant, to the detriment or contribution (depends how you look at it) of our well-being," says my friend.

Another friend, Sharizal Sharaani, put it succinctly: "Men (and, yes, women too) cheat because they can. Full stop."

The writer still believes in love and marriage and wants to move to Corfu.

The Star , Thu, Oct 09, 2008.
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.
.
Why can't people just remain faithful to their spouses??
i'm not saying that women are so pious and nvr played b'hind their men backs
but i guess..the most common scenario are men being unfaithful...??
I dunnoe..i hope i'm not upsetting anyone
if yes..then i'm sorry..this is just my feelings and never meant to hurt anyone
either way..stay faithful to your spouse please,
dun treat your spouse how u dun wan to be treated.

with this...
have a great weekend..!!!
=)

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polygamy

2008-10-11T08:21:00.010+08:00

it all started at lala comments field..sumthing like

"i'm freaking out on polygamy"
why the sudden fear or tots..and it's all bcos of an article..
she asked me, so m i not afraid of it..
not that i'm not afraid..just that i dun want to think about it..
but after reading it, i started to have 2nd tots...hehe..

but lala shared with me a convo that she shared with another male colleague..
"look, there are things you can control, and things you can't... all you need is the sense to control the things you can, and the strength to not worry about the things you can't....if the man you are with is so hung up on superficial things then he isnt the man you want by your side...he will love you for you.. the whole package... when we are old and wrinkly and can't do the business in the bedroom any more, isnt the persons spirit and soul much more important?"
so true gitu kan..

You can try asking your other half, see what their answer me...then maybe we can share-share... c how our other half answer the question...

but i know mine...

LOV.e have answered me last nite.... =)

at the same time I seek clarification from LOV.e ...

and his answer still does not satisfy my curiosity
but it only made me more ...hrmmm
guys think like that kerr...?? meke-meke nie mmg mintak kena yak-duss satu kali...
but then again...

even women think like that..

i guess it's just human natural instinct

but i for sure DO NOT accept such notion
i try not to think about it..
all i can do is pray and hope to have a marriage that will last till eternity
like romeo and juliet
where they stayed true to each other
insya'allah..

p.s: the article will be posted on top of this post..happy reading..
hehee...

unrepentant

2008-10-08T10:04:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry
You did so much and yet i still whine
I didnt mean for it to come that way
Thou you are not angry
I know that you are abit dissappointed
I am sorry
I keep doing the same mistakes over and over again
What i've said is not what i meant
Please dont be dissappointed
It's not you it's me
I am sorry LOV.e

Y

HaRi RaYa...!!

2008-10-05T20:17:00.005+08:00

What does Hari Raya means to you?
This was the question that one of my gf posts on her blog..
It mean so much to me..
but what matter most is Ramadhan..
But i cldnt really describe what i'm feeling..
cos my emotion throughout this month is a pure roller coaster ride
that have yet reach it's stop
I hope i will be able to see next year ramadhan
As a stronger individual
As a new individual

Insya'allah...

On another note
I Y raya cos this is the one month that i can really see my cuzzies
Haf a gd laft
and just share stories with each other
cos every other month
it seems that everyone is too bz with their own stuff
but nonetheless..we r still as close as eva
and i heart my cuzzies muchie muchie...

1st day of syawal

abg & kak iza

daniel..name as cute as d baby

sya & dino

salam lebaran from us to everyone..!!

peace & kisses

yayness..!!

this is CUTE

2008-10-04T13:18:00.002+08:00

ok i know this skin does NOT suit me at all
but i find it kinda cute
and too difficult for me to resist
hehee..

till i find a more appropriate skin

Y

passbook

2008-09-30T12:35:00.004+08:00

I don't know if this is fiction or non. But i thought i would just want to share this with everyone. Take everything with a pinch of salt and not let all the arguments and unhappiness take over the relationship..

Marriage Passbook

Jocelyn married William this day. At the end of the wedding party, Jocelyn's mother gave her a newly opened bank saving passbook. With $1000 deposit amount. Mother: 'Jocelyn, take this passbook. Keep it as a record of your marriage life. When there's something happy and memorable happened in your new life, put some money in.
Write down what it's about next to the line. The more memorable the event is, the more money you can put in. I've done the first one for you today. Do the others with William. When you look back after years, you can know how much happiness you've had.'
Jocelyn shared this with William when getting home. They both thought it was a great idea and were anxious to know when the second deposit can be made.

This was what they did after certain time

- 7 Feb: $100, first birthday celebration for William after marriage
- 1 Mar: $300, salary raise for Jocelyn
- 20 Mar: $200, vacation trip to Bali
- 15 Apr: $2000, Jocelyn got pregnant
- 1 Jun: $1000, William got promoted
...... and so on...

However, after years, they started fighting and arguing for trivial things. They didn't talk much. They regretted that they had married the most nasty people in the world.... no more love... Kind of typical nowadays, huh?

One day Jocelyn talked to her Mother:

'Mom, we can't stand it anymore. We agree to divorce. I can't imagine how I decided to marry this guy!!!' Mother: 'Sure, girl, that's no big deal. Just do whatever you want if you really can't stand it. But before that, do one thing first. Remember the saving passbook I gave you on your wedding day? Take out all money and spend it first. You shouldn't keep any record of such a poor marriage.

Jocelyn thought it was true. So she went to the bank, waiting at the queue and planning to cancel the account. While she was waiting, she took a look at the passbook record. She looked, and looked, and looked. Then the memory of all the previous joy and happiness just came up her mind. Her eyes were then filled with tears. She left and went home. When she was home, she handed the passbook to William, asked him to spend the money before getting divorce.

The next day, William gave the passbook back to Jocelyn. She found a new deposit of $5000. And a line next to the record: 'This is the day I notice how much I've loved you thru out all these years. How much happieness you've brought me.

They hugged and cried, putting the passbook back to the safe. Do you know how much money they had saved when they retired? I did not ask. I believe the money did not matter anymore after they had gone thru all the good years in their life. Happy sharing...very encouraging for husband and wife...

'Prayer may not change things for you, but it for sure changes you for things.'
~Samuel Shoemaker~

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enuf already

2008-09-26T13:12:00.003+08:00

T.I.R.E.D

really i am

totally

i guess as a person

i am mean

i think

dats why i'm getting al this shiite

and in d end i'm just like d garbage truck..

2 in 1

2008-09-25T09:03:00.006+08:00

The Law of the Garbage Truck

One day I hopped in a taxi and we took off for the airport.We were driving in the right lane when suddenly a blackCar jumped out of a parking space right in front of us. My Taxi driver slammed on his breaks, skidded, and missed theOther car by just inches! The driver of the other car whipped His head around and started yelling at us. My taxi driverJust smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was really friendly.

So I asked, "Why did you just do that? This guy almost caused an accident and sent us to the hospital!" This is when my taxi driver taught me what I now call, "The Law of the Garbage Truck."

He explained that many people are like garbage trucks.They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full ofanger, full of disappointment and rage. As their garbagepiles up, they need a place to dump it and sometimes they'll dump it on you. Don't take it personally. Just smile,wave, wish them well, and move on. Don't pick up their garbage and spread it to other people in your life, whether at work,at home, or to people that you don't even know on the streets.
Always remember that good people do not let garbage trucks take over their day . Life’s too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so.....
Always remember that good people do not let garbage trucks take over their day . Life’s too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so.....

i will try to remember this..really try to remember this

on another note

i don't feel good
i don't know why
i'm very much disturbed
but is this normal?
i do not know
i need to know
i really do ...

Y

manners

2008-09-23T12:02:00.006+08:00

Recently an article was published about kids

being sent to attend manner classes

just wondering..
would you sent your child to learn manners??

i really do wonder..

will i myself want to sent my child to a manner class

hrmmm..

food for tot

smart heyy

2008-09-22T12:44:00.004+08:00

Kids today are getting smarter n smarter

have a good laft..!!

Kids Are Quick

TEACHER: Maria, go to the map and find North America .
MARIA: Here it is.
TEACHER: Correct. Now class, who discovered America ?
CLASS: Maria.

TEACHER: John, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor?
JOHN: You told me to do it without using tables.

TEACHER: Glenn, how do you spell 'crocodile?'
GLENN: K-R-O-K-O-D-I-A-L'
TEACHER: No, that's wrong
GLENN: Maybe it is wrong, but you asked me how I spell it.

TEACHER: Donald, what is the chemical formula for water?
DONALD: H I J K L M N O.
TEACHER: What are you talking about?
DONALD: Yesterday you said it's H to O.

TEACHER: Winnie, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
WINNIE: Me!

TEACHER: Glen, why do you always get so dirty?
GLEN: Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.

TEACHER: Millie, give me a sentence starting with 'I.'
MILLIE: I is..
TEACHER: No, Millie..... Always say, 'I am.'
MILLIE: All right... 'I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.'

TEACHER: George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree, but also admitted it. Now, Louie, do you know why his father didn't punish him?
LOUIS: Because George still had the axe in his hand.

TEACHER: Now, Simon, tell me frankly, do you say prayers before eating?
SIMON: No sir, I don't have to, my Mom is a good cook.

TEACHER: Clyde , your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
CLYDE : No, sir. It's the same dog.

TEACHER: Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
HAROLD: A teacher

yayness

2008-09-19T13:23:00.005+08:00

i cant help but to use this picture cos its so pinky gitu..

thou the number shown i 1!!

i totally forgot abt this..
i turned 2 YESTERDAY!!!...
woohooo..
blow trumpets..
play wib balloons..!!
ok i'm crazy..
but i've been waiting for yesterday for 2 years ady!!
yayness..!!

and on another note
i am super sick..

BUT
throughout this fasting month
i DID NOT attack anyone ok
BUT
YOU who seem to think only the goodness abt yourself
who is a miss-goody-two-shoe
who does NO mistake
well well well
U TALK ABOUT OTHERS
or let me phrase this
NGUMPAT ABOUT OTHERS!!
wake up GIRL
nie kan bulan puasa
tak tau nak bertaubat kerr??!!!
i guess ALLAH
forgotten to LOCK u n your group of MINIONS UP!!!
puas hati jgn puasa
TAK GUNA..!!
lupa kah kamu
aper yg sepatut diamalkan di bulan yang mulia ini
good god..
please wake up
umur beraper umur..
memalukan sungguh!!
tsktsk

Now NOW
dun YOU point your fingers at me COS
i have just been granted L.F.F
dumdum

and i am thankful that i am not your frend...

jauhkanlah..

na'uzubillah' minzalik

contemplating

2008-09-15T09:49:00.003+08:00

you know sumthing
i've been contemplating
very much infact
but i dun know
i dun understand
how this feeling came about
all I know is that I’m thinking a lot about it
but still something kept holding me back
weird how this feeling came about
when I’m not even along that line
LOV.e knows.. and he praises ALLAH
For this feelings that I’m developing
Maybe it’s temporary maybe it’s for good?
I dun know..
Guess we’ll just have to wait and see

Ps: hidup ini hanya satu persinggahan dan nyawa kita hanyalar satu pinjaman

realization

2008-09-04T14:42:00.003+08:00

ok i know i'm not supposed to be doin this during ofice hr

guilty of it..heh..
but
i found something inetresting...
very interesting..

now i can say that
blogging is indeed important
where you store your tots & feelings
for a moment i smile
and i wish n i pray that
all is not lost

i didnt know what made me go through my archives
to that particular year
to that particular month

you know what my conclusion is
ramadhan is always a month
which is full of test & trials for myself
but yet
ramadhan after ramadhan
i've yet to learn my lessons
i wonder how many more chance
god.family.LOV.e.joy.frends.
will give me,
to make amends
to make peace
i am a big dissappointment

finito

Y

cloudy

2008-09-03T15:15:00.003+08:00

as dark as d sky dats what i'm feeling
as heavy as the rain drops dats how i cried

sucks i'm never good in this
argghhh

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and i still feel lousy

burst

2008-09-01T14:06:00.002+08:00

today is the 1st day of ramadhan

and

i'm home, sick

my front n end pipes burst..!!

so much for wanting to stay home and slack

i hope today's not forfeited

cos i'm still hanging on

sighh..

and ms rena

i'm waiting for you to upload the pics

for our party hat moment

till then..

i so need to lie down

ramadhan

2008-08-29T09:10:00.005+08:00

so fast time flies
day into night
night into day
i missed the days that have passed
the days that carry sad and fond memories
now Ramadhan is around the corner
but i'm still me
i guess it's time
i won't promise
but i will try
.
.
I seek forgiveness from family, frends & LOV.e
for all that's been said
and left unspoken
May Ramadhan be a month of barakah for everyone
Insya'allah
.
.
p.s: setan all tied up, so u dun noti2...!
cos if u still noti..then u will know who the real setan is... heh
.
.
Joy is gg for another one of her many trips
bangkok
sawa-di-kapp
have fun babe
and take care!
.
.
as for me..
i'm celebrating my b-lated candle blowing tonyte
with the charmed ladies obviously..
see u later babes!!
Y

4bIa

2008-08-27T08:40:00.003+08:00

Ok this is one scary movie

and it doesn't help

that i'm a scardy cat

finally went to watch it wif dino n my siblings + friends

and my chest

many many pain

imagine till now

when i'm typing this entry

my chest is still in pain

and i'm still scared

really this movie is not for the

weak hearted

don't believe me?

watch it then you'll know

gd luck..!!

sorry

2008-08-25T15:11:00.001+08:00

.... I'm sorry ....

congaratulations

2008-08-25T10:53:00.005+08:00

C.O.N.G.R.A.T.U.L.A.T.I.O.N.S

Cool.Outstanding.Neat.Great.Remarkable.Amazing.

Terrific.Unbelievable.Lovely.Awesome.Tremendous.

Incredible.Outrageous.Nice.Sweet.

you will never know

how your words really motivate me

and congratulations is something that i nvr tot i would receive

i tot i never could

but this just prove that i could

thank you
thank you

thank you

wonder

2008-08-20T18:56:00.003+08:00

do you look at me wif awe

as i do look at you wif awe

wad makes you different from me?

is it because of your status?

is it because of your popularity?

does that make you any different from me?

after all we are still humans?

are we not?

often i wonder

often i look at you with awe

for a moment i dun noe if i should envy you or not

but then again

wad is there to be envious about

you have your precious life

likewise the same goes for me

the only difference is in our status

but then again

so be it i guess

this is life

and everyone have their fair share of life

at the end of the road

it is our creator that we should face

he will look upon us w/o our status, w/o our popularity

that we gain while we are on earth

so be it

wicked aura album launched

2008-08-19T09:04:00.004+08:00

150808
the album launched was done at zouk
they were kewl..
they rocked..!!
so awesome..OMG!!
hehe
but it was not totally about watching them
LOV.e & Yunus did their filming there
i hope i'm not in
i squeeze myself away
what with limited space and all
but all in all i enjoyed myself
thou the nyte ended too early for my liking
but cinderella need to go home
so that her pumpkin and horses and mice
won't scatter n break into pieces
hehehe..
oh n yesh before i forget..i shook hands with BUDIii!!!
sighh..should have taken pics wib him..
but i made LOV.e took tons of photo of Budi..
hehehehe..
yayyyy

wicked aura ..totally wicked

guess d crew

us wib IS@ impromptu cameramen

LOV.e wib Yunus

with love from us..

p.s: somehow or other i was gotten in
i hope i wun look silly
cos i felt stiff n farnie
god i so dun wan to know..

Y

prince of wales

2008-08-12T14:17:00.003+08:00

d results was released at Prince of Wales

for a moment when the result was released

everyone was not reacting to the news

not even me..!!

but i was not day dreaming ok

no no noo..

so yesh LOV.e & yunus WON!!

woohoo..

they get to do one recording song with a local artist

AND

i am praying hard for this one local artist

praying hard for this ONE artist..

haha..and LOV.e know what i'm talking about

and i bet he's rolling his eyes

he just buat deaf

hehe..

either way..

can't wait..

and LOV.e

i am so happy for you

and so proud of you

080808

2008-08-09T18:13:00.010+08:00

080808

nice combination NO?
well to me, it is..
anyway..this year was a very special year
LOV.e celebrated my day
a day in advance
but it was a very much love celebration
LOV.e planned it
and oh did he planned it well..
COS
he prepared 25 gifts for me
AND
all the gifts starts with and 'N'
a very pleasant surprise
how could i asked for more when i have this man to shower me with
so much love and patience

AND

You know what…??!!

I still managed to get cranky..!!

I am one spoilt fiancée

Yes yes..i know I was mean

But it only for a short while

Short tinie weenie while

Really

Tak bedek…

on another note
my family bday celebration was done on a quiet note
cos
i just want to treasure this moment
when i'm still a daughter and sister
i know iknow
its not as if when i'm married i'm neither those above
its just that
i know things will chnge..
so..on family note
i heart everyone many many

my many gifts from LOV.e but one is missing from this pics

thank you LOV.e

thank you for everything

and not forgetting to those who msg me..

thank you for the wishes..i heart you guys manymany

and sometime this time next year

you will know why LOV.e celebrate my b'dae in advance

happy waiting....

Aug babies

2008-08-05T22:35:00.002+08:00

My dIno turned 17th on 04-08-08

just a mini celebration

HAPPY BURSTDAY dino

may all your dreams come true

and only the bestest things befalls you

AND

i myself am counting down

to a day where will only come once

such nice combination

heh..

and i receive an advance b'day wish

totally unexpected

thank you ms dearie deana

you made my day today

soo..till d day..dats creeping by eva so fast

*muacks*

do you...

2008-08-03T09:16:00.005+08:00

do you know..?

No i dun think u know..

nvm now you will know..

hehehe..

i bought miself my very own bday pressie..!!

haha..just like ms rena..

lalala..

nice tak..?

but all i know is that its comfy..

and all thanks to crocs

heee

dea.D

2008-07-30T18:48:00.002+08:00

this is my busiest week so far

BUT i must let this out

i am so DEAD tired

my whole body is aching

AND i'm walking like a DUCK

by this friday..

i am so going to be a DEAD DUCK

charmed nyte

2008-07-26T21:10:00.006+08:00

250708

the charmed ladies met

was latee for diner and only managed to mit them

at 8pm...!!

we later head to MING CITY

for my first eva karaOKE session..!!

haha..i so d jakun

i was abit apprehensive at 1st

cos obviously i cant SING..!!

i know i know..so lame kan

anw..i ended up

having TONS of fun

singing.screaming.jumping.

an one of the crazy song i pick was

'aku suka singkong

ko suka keju

oh oh oh'

oh yesh..ann join us..

and i guess she was shocked to see us gal jumping arnd

and needless to say

singing to this song..

hehehe

i so love my charmed ladies

till we meet again in two weeks time

counting down for tHAt..!!

flower

2008-07-23T14:09:00.002+08:00

it came as a surprise

wonderful surprise

and i LOV.e it..

Thank you LOV.e

Y

encore

2008-07-21T14:32:00.002+08:00

family chalet
18 July 08
Aloha Loyang
Fun.Lafter.Food
one big happy family
encore
encore
ENCORE..!!

sophie kinsella

2008-07-17T13:47:00.004+08:00

Sophie Kinsella is one of my fav author

and i especially like this book

'can you keep a secret'

it's hilarious..!! reallyy..!!

how she pretend to be someone whose she's not just so to fit in

then accidentally blurt out all her secrets to a stranger

who turns out to be her BOSS!!

hahaa..

one way or another i find that i can relate to this character

but nahh..i dun have that many a secret

..i always 'share' my secret

so i dun think that qualifies as a secret huh..

but i think one should have secrets

just for the fun of it..

he hee...

and tdy...i so can't wait till i knock off from work..

sooo can't wait..

cos

i'm

meeting

LOV.e

finalllyyyyyyyyy.....

muackz

2008-07-16T23:02:00.004+08:00

I'm physically and emotionally
OUT
and
i miss LOV.e tons..
it have been ages since we last met
which is like a few days only
imagine next year when i cldn't see LOV.e
a MONTH before d-day
sighhh
=(

Y

2008-07-14T23:04:00.004+08:00

day turn into night

and so the cycle continues

one incident after the other

i tot i'm strong but guess i was

just evading everything

can human be so cruel

i dunnoe..if indeed a human can be so cruel

then i hope you will suffer in hell

for the pain dat you've caused

i really hate you..whoever you are

and

again i lost someone dear

rest in peace grand-dad

no words can be describe

just know that you will be greatly missed

al-fatehah

d weekend

2008-07-07T22:15:00.010+08:00

d weekend started off by waking up early on sat morn

prepare the food and in between did some quick catching up with mom n dad thou by now i have no idea wad the topic was all about.. *hurhur*

anyway the food is for the picnic..!! hehe

met my sec sch gf's..joy..ezan wif baby daughter..& farihah

just the 4 of us

we did some quick catching up

counted how many have gotten married thus far

and whose next...! =)

we peep..we ate..we gossip..n she fell..!! hahaha..it shall be a day to be remembered n now i'm not the only one who falls in d grp.!!

..anw..wonder whr d small boat led the men too..

so joy should we call the police...? hehehe..

niwaes..dat was my sat-day, pics to be uploaded when dearest joy uploaded it and soon i hope..

d highlight came on SUN-day

d day dat my LOV.e talent shone out

d words..

d meanings..

was so awed by the words..

the words was so simple yet it carried a thousand meanings

Al-Fatehah to Almarhum Mansuri SN

ur creations will be remembered for generations to come

congrats LOV.e .congrats eunos..both of u were really sumthing

esp my LOV.e ..

And my happiest moment was that i'm there wif LOV.e

to b dere wif him..to b part of his special moment

thou i apologise for still being able to throw my tantrum.. hehe

.x. hugz .x.

*wave wave*

my in-laws

d naib-juara!!!

LOV.e wif his prize

.us.

i quote -

"kita ini bukan siapa
bukan pandai

bukan bodoh

bukan apa-apa"

with that..

I had a fantabulous weekend

so did you..?

think about this

2008-06-30T18:39:00.003+08:00

- Think about this -

do we only learn

pass with flying colors

get a cert

and move on with live

Is that all that we obtained?

throughout the years that we mix and learn?

Where is the etiquette? the manners that befits d qualification

Think and let your imagination run wild to the extreme possibilities

that you have seen and wad ur mind can conjure

manners and etiqutte that is missing in today society

tsk tsk..

wad else can be said..

guese this can't be learned

it come from within oneself

enuf said

Believe

2008-06-19T10:42:00.003+08:00

. Yesterday is history .
. Tommorrow is a mystery .
. Today is present .

Though it's difficult, one must learn to believe in oneself. Cos if you won't then who else will? Never say never and that impossible is impossible..remember, think POSITIVE..!!

anyhoe...

had a fantabulous time yesterday
and the score was 48 to 57
and i lose
everytime
always
so not fair..
pay back time..soon..!!

missing yesterday already..sighhh
Y

finallyy...

2008-06-15T22:33:00.003+08:00

when the clock strikes 12 tonyte
is exactly 1 year since we goten engaged
how fast time flies..
and some time same time next year
i will be legally his..

came up with something
d bits and pieces of the mini surprises

hope LOV.E like it..
can't wait
Y

P.E.A.C.E

2008-06-14T18:46:00.003+08:00

I wonder if people know the meaning of these word animore

.P.E.A.C.E
As i stand tall and look around
All i can see is people wanting to step over others
Where is the innocence that we once known
Is the world such a cruel place where all you can think is only about yourself?
Isn't there better things that needs to be seen too
I didn't know that the world can be such a sad place to live in
The bombings, the unneccessary killings
Can't you see what the world is going through?
Isn't saving Gaia more important?
War after war and only the weak and poor are the ones
that is sacrificed.
All this unneccesary killings, only saddens me
I thought with you coming to power, things might change
But i guess its still too early to say anything

sighh..

And there was that incident
I pity him, and thankfully he is safe and alive
Don't give up. It's never your fault.
But 'you'..you are already in there about to be sentenced
Why did you caused harm to him..?
tsk tsk..
I guess one should never be sorry for the likes of you.

+thou i do not know you, do get well soon+

IT Fair

2008-06-13T11:29:00.004+08:00

We were among the throngs of first grp of ppl to visit the IT Fair..

And luckily i was not wearing my heels..dun think i will survive the fair..

Anyways, obviously i went wif dear

And yesterday i was having one of my good mood swings

And one incident really made me laft out loud

AND we main kejar-kejar..!!

Well anihoe..yesterday was superbly happy..

And dear shook hands with the enemy.. tsktsk..poor man..he was so shock..!

And i almost drank sumone else's DRINK!

Yikesss...

hahaa

anyhoe..

It's TGIF!! yayyy Y

R.E.S.P.E.C.T

2008-06-11T22:22:00.004+08:00

Some ppl just will never learn to be thankful
always making noise and getting caught up with what nots
imagine us, nvr on d receiving but always on the giving end
but do we make noise..? NO!!
so wake up people, instead of making noise why won't
you people see your current state and work for changes
instead of making noise and expecting changes to drop from the air..
so the nonsense lar..

And also...

Blogging is like some form of diary..No..?
It's like our virtual diary where we pen our tots, feelings and wad eva nots..
So why isit ppl get offended when they read other ppl blogs?
If you have feelings, then do you think other ppl dun have feelings too?
Respect other ppl blogs as you would expect from others to urs
Learn this word R.E.S.P.E.C.T
Stop gg arnd ppl blog, and getting offended by the entries..
get a life plss..
You are more than welcome to read other ppl blogs..
BUT PLEASE respect the owner of that particular blog..

RESPECT

2008-06-06T22:09:00.007+08:00

Met my charmed ladies yesterday 050608.

Its our monthly meet-up that i always look forward too

True, like what ms rena said

amazing how our path crossed..and i'm so thankful that it happened

And has usual we had a fantabulous time..!!!!

We ate, we laft AND we played 'touch ya'

hahaha..only mKd and ms fish noes what i'm talking abt

WE are so full of nonsense OK... =)

We planned our next meet-up..so cant wait for then

and thanks darls for the listening ear..

sorie my ear was not there der eu..due to me need to rush off... sighh

BUT i'm stil here *wave wave*

Ms mKd...pics..dunforget to upload the pics.... Y

p.s: Exactly one year from now, exactly one year from now...time is ticking...patiently waiting with deepening anticipation

passing baton...??

2008-05-30T22:30:00.004+08:00

Guess the ball have start to roll in the family

One after another is either getting married or engaged

Either way i'm always there to sibuk sibuk

The one and only penyibok.. hehe

Congratz dear Bro...

Selamat Bertunang

my precious love

where we r not suppose to be

the red-uns

two out of the four impt man in my life

Look ma..

2008-05-30T22:18:00.005+08:00

i think i can be classified as a hermit or sumthing..it always takes forever to meet my bestie..but finally we MET!!

we went to mit mr STAR...so big n bright..!!

i guess meeting is never complete without food and cam-whoring

hur hurr..

snap snap..and as usual i always ended up clowning around

well wad else is new..

=)

more

more

more

meet up!!!

Y

u ask..

2008-05-28T16:02:00.003+08:00

Can you believe it that i dun like to talk...??
I know that this sounds contradicting..
But siriusly i dun like to talk..
Farnie why people find it hard to believe me...

Cos perhaps i portray the wrong thing..??
I got split personality..
Now perhaps, that maybe a food for tot...?
anyway..

i got so many thing to post..
pics..pics ..n more picss...
=)

Y

simply said

2008-05-21T11:05:00.004+08:00

simply said
your words just simply made my day Y

&

finally i'm meeting BUBU later today!!
hahaa..yippiee yayy...
so can't wait..
toodles

pen down tots

2008-05-16T00:50:00.004+08:00

I'm humbled and i'm touched
Humbled on the realisation that i'm not perfect,

infact no one is.
And communication plays a vital role in our daily lives
Time and time again, i tend to forget myself and walk forward w/o turning my back, and look at my past that is and will always be a part of me
So happy i am with my other half and d direction that i'm leading
that unknowingly, i've forgotten the sun and the rainbow that have been sheltering my path..

Touched that i'm still needed and missed
How much, well that i wldnt know
but at least now i know, thou a bit..well that is all that matters.

In life, there's always a thing called 2nd chance..and i'm sincerely truly
humbled that i'm given that chance
To make amends...to make everything a-ok again
And i hope no more blunders by myself
not at this age ...quite embarassing i must say.. Y
=)

p.s: this is not the case of the ex or anything...so dun get me wrong..but i know that the intended party noes what i meant and that i'm trying to make amends
Y

focus

2008-05-15T19:10:00.005+08:00

few more hrs left to cramp all the info inside my head..
my own blawdy fault for studying last minutes..
tried gg to the lib to focus more
and darling dear was dere to accompany me
even more teruk..
i cldnt concentrate..
ended up me disturbing him..
and him pampering mee... wheee
hahaa...
but hey i still managed to absorb the info hor.. *evil laft*
loving it loving hym
*muackz*

. . . . . . . . . . . . . .
so cant focus.. =)

snap

brain overload

champione ole ole ole...

2008-05-12T14:40:00.002+08:00

Need i say more...

the picture says it ALL!!!

The 10th premier league for Man Utd

champione ole ole OLE ..!!!

happy mother's day

2008-05-11T17:07:00.005+08:00

This year mother's day was just a simple celebration. Brought mom to watch ayat-ayat cinta and she loved it..
And i'm glad that she loved it..with present of course..
=)

Thank you for being a wonderful mom to us. You've been my pillar of strength throughout my 25 years journey in life. Thank you mom, you're the greatest and the bestest...

Happy Mother's Day Mommy..
I Love You
We Love You

And to all my aunts and other mom's..Happy Mother's Day
not forgetting my mama a.k.a mother in law...
Happy mother's Day
*HUGZ*

When Nile River meets Eygpt..

"Ja. Mein name ist Fahri."
"Mein name ist Aisha,"

the need to...

2008-05-11T00:57:00.005+08:00

Why is it hard for people to treat others like how they want to be treated. Why can some people be so sensitive but insensitive toward others? And why is it that i am always the one who is being treated as such. Perhaps i dun have feelings?

Always me, always me...why, why, WHY!! i am so tired and freaking pissed off with such people.

I'm sicked and tired and saying 'oh perhaps i'm the caused of it' nomore, i will not subject myself to such degrading thoughts. I have feelings TOO you know. Last time i check you had feelings too so why are you treating others as such??

I am so upset, so very upset..rarely the person whom i call a frend will be able to hurt me cause i will always say to myself it's ok, cos i treasure ur frendship..but people dun treasure that frendship. My imperfection is all that matters to them but did they ever stop to think about their own imperfection..? I'm just tired of all this lar, so sick and tired of always being treated as such...

And nope this is not about my darling fiance..how can i be upset with the person who coaxed me out of this misery...

sighhh..well life goes on ryte..

I dun want the source of my unhappiness to result in me failing my exam..i so need to focus...

.....................

retreat08

2008-05-04T01:52:00.005+08:00

Me being me..always love to run from the truth. Either that or i'm just out making something out of nothing..

Anywayzz...

My recent updates is that i went for an office retreat..!! woohoo.. it was a 1N2D retreat at Amara Sanctuary @SenTosa. It was so fun lar, the feeling is like you're overseas (due to the ambience) but actually you're not. But come to think of it, technically i am overseas except no passport was required!! teehee..

Facilities was GREAT, but sadly i couldn't use any of it cos i was stuck in discussions, bonding and GAMES!! come nytez..well dun even want to go there, kind of sore about it..sighh..one nyte n i didnt make full use of it..shiite. (and my darling dear came..!! He only stayed for a short while though cos he was sick, my poor baby..touching gitukan..=p)

BUt anywayz one thing, one thing that i learnt through this retreat is that, It doesnt help to be nice. I'm quite sad actually due to the insensitive action of my colleague. Am i mean..? Am i a nerd or sumthing? I was and have always been the joke of everything. Why do people treat me as such..just bcos i'm timid, does that give YOU d RIGHT to push me against the wall?? and step on my feelings?? I HATE YOU!!! Yes i HATE people LIKE YOU!! People like you who push aside ppl hardwork and demoralised them, trampled on their feelings. I dun noe why people like u exist, and me being the weak me only managed to let tears roll down my cheeks. I look up at you as a mentor but to hear such remarks from you really change my whole opinion on you.

But thanks to you, it have only motivated me to do better and excel in my work..i shall prove to u n everyone that i am indeed good. And i will return to being a hermit minding my own business. I really regretted helping you. That shall be d 1st and d last time. Nomore being a nice guy, cause i've learn it the hard way..being nice doesn't benefit me shiite.

Though i can say that the retreat was fun, she have spoil it all...

itcHy finGer

2008-04-23T00:52:00.003+08:00

i guess when you have too much time on your hand you tend to do nonsensical stuf... Yup i went and played around and my template was gone..!! darn it.. Luckily my dear ms Rena highlighted this to me if not i will happiLy abandoned my bLog and move on to other things..weLL i guess this is it..no more fiddling no more itchy fingers...its time too concentrateee...dum dee dum dee dum..

piLLs

2008-03-18T20:44:00.002+08:00

This peepz are my angry piLLs, frustration piLLs, sad piLLs, all the piLLs there is BUT most of all they are my HAPPY PILLs..

The clouds are changing..and i'm gg to miss them soo..
=I

2008-03-14T12:43:00.003+08:00

Today while i was on the bus ride to work
i suddenly realise ONE thing
the realisation of it just sank in
which literally sank in..
I realise that i am one EMOtional Gal since young
never manage to get out of that phase, perhaps never will
Emotional THEN and am still EMOtional NOW
QUite proud of it actually..
haha..

I guess everyone is guilty of being EMOtional..
..so Yah..
=D

lively singapore

2008-03-07T16:41:00.002+08:00

suddenly Singapore is so full of life..
1st it was Mas Selamat
And now it's the shoot out at Outram MRT
Our security credibility was questioned then druing MS escape stunt
And now they are getting the limelight again
I don't think the police officer made any mistake in shooting the armed guy
BUT i'm not there, not trained as to constitute wads right n wads wrong
but the story is like more focus on the police officer
As if to clarify that he's not in the wrong to shoot
and i think it's not wrong of him too
so why must the focus be so much on the police officer?
its as if, they must answer to the public for all their actions?
OR maybe i misunderstood the story altogether
well wadeva it is..
nothing is perfect and everyone is 'human' after all...
so the bottom line is...we can never feel safe..totally safe..
cos anything can happen, anywhere...anytime..

well maybe this pain is making my brain go haywire..sighhhh

YOU

2008-03-03T18:58:00.002+08:00

to begin with, i'm never loud
i am noisy but never loud
why must it always be me
who have to adapt to the surroundings and NOT d other way round
when will YOU ever wake up and try to adapt to me for ONCE
i am so sick of all this
if and IF one day i eva found that courage
that i so lacked
i will surely packed my bag and leave you, you & YOU behind
i am siriusly sick of al this

2008-03-02T20:43:00.002+08:00

This is soo cute..BUT i think it won't be that cute if it really happens..
hehee..

Sebelum Tido:
6 minggu: Selamat tido Sayaaang, mimpi indah-2 ya, mmmuach.
6 bulan: Tolong matikan lampu tu, silau aah.
6 tahun: Sana sikit lah... Tido kalau tak mengepit tak bole ker???!

Pakai Toilet:
6 minggu: Tak apa, U masuk ler dulu, I tak kisaaahhhh
6 bulan: Masih lama lagi ke nih?
6 tahun: Brug! brug! brug! (suara pintu digegar), kalau nak bertapa pilah gunung ledang sana!!!

Balas SMS:
6 minggu: Iye Sayang, jap lagi I sampai rumah. Sayang, I belikan murtabak favourite U ye Sayang..
6 bulan: Trafik jam aah
6 tahun: K..

Dating process:
6 minggu: I love U, I love U, I love U.
6 bulan: Of course I love U.
6 tahun: Iyalah!! kalau I tak cintakan U, buat apa I nikah dengan U???

Pulang Kerje:
6 minggu: Sayaaang, I dah balik nih...
6 bulan : I'm BACK!!
6 tahun: Masak apa hari ini??

Hadiah (ulang tahun):
6 minggu: Sayang, I harap U suka cincin yang I beli untuk U ni
6 bulan: I beli lukisan, nampak sesuai dengan suasana ruang tengah
6 tahun: Nih duit, U beli sendirilah apa yg U nak..

Telefon:
6 minggu: Baby, ada yang ingin berbual ngan U di telefon nih
6 bulan: Eh... Your call...
6 tahun: WOOIII TELFON BUNYI TUUUHHH.... ANGKAT AAAAAHHH!!!

Masakan:
6 minggu: Wah, tak sangka I, pandai U masak.Rasa pun sedappp...!!!
6 bulan: Kita makan apa malam ini??
6 tahun: HAH!! LAUK INI LAGI?

Memaafkan:
6 minggu: Sudahlah, tak apa, dah pecah pun, nanti kita beli lagi yang lain,eh 6 bulan: Hati-hati, nanti jatuh tuh.
6 tahun: Orang dah bilang berkali-2 pon tak paham!!

Baju baru:
6 minggu: Aduh sayang, U seperti bidadari dengan pakaian itu
6 bulan: Lah... Beli baju baru lagi?
6 tahun: DAH BERAPA RIBU HABIS BELI BAJU TU???

Merancangkan Holiday:
6 minggu: Macam mana kalau kita jalan-jalan ke Amerika atau ke tempat yg U nak honey?
6 bulan: Kita ke Bukit Bintang aje ler... Senang sikit tak perlu naik flight...
6 tahun: JALAN-JALAN??? DUDUK RUMAH AJE TAK BOLEH KE? BUANG DUIT JE!

TV:
6 minggu: Baby, kita nak tengok cite apa malam ini?
6 bulan : Sekejap eh, citer bagus ah.
6 tahun: JANGAN TUKAR-2 BOLE TAK..

hehe..

p.s: i Love you

2008-02-27T21:22:00.004+08:00

the week is passing by fast enuf...

met my charmed Ladees & celebrated Joy's Bdae ..!! yippiee.e... had so much fun with these grp of ppl..

Lemme see...met up with the charmed ladies and we head down to cswy pt..where we ate and gossip n where i oso sinned..!! hehe..my charmed ladies sure will understand what i meant when i said i've sinned .. =)

God will & can forgive me, but my card won't.. =)

anyhows..
joy AGED a year older on the 23 Feb. I'm nvr gd wif dates..no idea why..
so, am always afraid to get her date all mix up..
But anyway, we went out on the 25th, to celebrate her biggest day
wif dino of course
and i had fun, WE had fun...
it's been so long since we last met
So we will be meeting again for 'ah long'
soon i guess ... =D

♥

♥

♥

♥

♥
I have another appt to meet up with another bunch of crazy ppl, and one of them is 2mths PREGNANT!!! whooopieeee...am so excited..3 mummy's to be, are surrounding me..
Kak ZZ, Hana & Nur ...i so can't wait for their bundle of Joy..!!

p.s: i love you

after it sinks in

2008-02-17T20:57:00.002+08:00

absence only make the heart grew fonder

yup that phrase is super duper true..

ok ok i noe that my entries are all super duper 'kencing manis'

but i cant help it..

hehee..

♥
♥

Is there animore holz cuming up...i so lazy to go to werkkk..
why do you end so soon dear weekend..

2008-02-14T22:12:00.001+08:00

♥ p.s.: i Lo.ve You ♥

2008-02-13T23:20:00.003+08:00

It is not about showering your beloved wif Lavish gifts

Its more than that

the touch

the love

cos a gift can't buy love

BUT

dot dot dot..need i still say it out loud.. =)

hehehee...

Anyway Happy Valentines Day to all my Lovely peepz..

♥

p.s: i'm so in love with you baby boi. Nuthing special nuthing fantastic, just my love declaration to you..that i love you yesterday, i love you today, i love you tommorrow & so it shall be till eternity insya'allah ♥

the day

2008-02-09T21:27:00.001+08:00

Lo.Ve is in the air

everyone is tip-toeing high up in d sky

where the slightes bcum almost non-existant

so the day when cupid work d hardest is just round the corner

and i so feel d Lo.ve

and evryday for 'me', for 'us'.. ♥cupid always strike ♥..

*winks*

=D

re-vamped

2008-02-07T04:23:00.000+08:00

There's always a new revelation every other day

i just realise one thing...

that human can never be satisfied with what they have

so am i satisfied with what i have..?

to a certain extend yes

but there's still that portion that i'm not happy with...
♥
♥
♥
♥

so ..?

it's over

2008-02-02T11:01:00.000+08:00

Finally everything is overr..after so many months of preparations, running around like crazy people, i can finally breathe normally. Yupz one of the biggest event that i help to coordinate AND for the very first time i get to see the big man!! kewl huh..hehee

Ryte now need to resume life as a normal human being, eat properly, need to start reading books anddd wadeva nots..

and lastlyy...

i miss YOU

i miss HYM

i miss ME

& i miss everyONE else ..

ketulusan hati

2008-01-27T20:08:00.000+08:00

Another wonderful song by Anuar Zain

too damn bad

2008-01-27T19:30:00.001+08:00

People BLOG for a reason
to share and let KNOWN
i blog & even YOU blog
Last time i check, BITCHING is the norm
even YOU are doin it
so IF the victim feels that the world is judging
HER base on a blog
well my dear it's just TOO DAMN BAD for her

.x. oopss..i guess i did it again.. .x.

p.s: pls grow up, its so embarassing to know that you behave as such..you just dont fit your profession..as for myself, i'm forever bitching so it suits my profession just fine..

x winks x

2008-01-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

I am sooo very tired +period+

Been bitching and cranky since..wad the heck i cant even remember since when

Guess everyone is equally as tired as me, temper have lost tears have been shed

I just wish that all this will pass over quickly cos i'm super duper tired

one consolation thou..never in my wildest dream did i imagine myself to be up there

but then again, soon it will be gone but i hope it will be given to me as keepsakes

x fingers cross x

Babes i finally uploaded the pics, go view it aite, but cldnt do much to it cos i'm zonking out soon

=)

Anyway we finally went to celebrate my charm ladee bday..was sooo belated, sorry darlz

but i really had fun..

Imagine three girls with different lifestyles can becum close over a period of 1year

Guess the opposite really attracts huh.. hehee =)

So now we are bonded by the magic of three (it rhymes..? hahaha)

Happy belated bdae darlz..better late then never

Tengok tu, sukanyer diee..hehehe
x winks x

On another note:

Life is so fragile,
It is a gift from god,
No matter what it may be,
You shouldn't have gone and done what you did,

May your soul rest in peace.

-updates-

2008-01-06T21:11:00.000+08:00

Procrastinate..one word i come to love..it's like my 2nd nature i guess..so very bad habit, must change change..if not mati mati..tentu mati...heh..And that's the sole reason why i nvr blog..cos i keep procrastinating n i realise another thing, some of my links are not werking..!!! hahaha..well i dun give a damn oso..hehehe

So some very quick updates..(which is going to be a very loonnnngg one)

1. Met with joy a couple of times..basically for munching session & also to racce some cultural stuffs. Like usual, our meeting session is always full of nonsense & picture session..but most of the pics are wif her..cos no point me taking ani picture, i will take ages to upload them..*grin* but had a blast when we went cultural stuff hunting..buat lawak tak agak2.. hahaa...sapu jom joy.. =D

Happy New Year ...!!

2. 311207 - Manage to squeze out frm hme to watch the fireworks. We went to watch 'I am Legend' and i kind of find it interesting when others said it was boring. Well different ppl different opinion ryte..so many ppl everywhr, some with party hats and wadeva nots ..for us..just walking hand in hand treasuring that precious time that we have together, cos being me..how often can i stay out late. Then we head down to esplanade to catch the fireworks and my goodness the crowd was 'WOW' ..well kata countdown ryte, like duhh..after all the pushing and excuse me's ..we manage to join the throngs of ppl at esplanade only to be block by trees!! argghhh...so i wun give ani stars to the fireworks cos i can't see it clearly..!! BUt dear was dere, ryte beside me holding my hand and even thou no words was being exchange, i can feel that i'm save there beside him..and that's all that matters... =_)

3. 020108 - They went to M'sia for holiday..w/o ME!! Sighh..i wish i can follow cos i need a break too but it's the peak period for me, so how am i suppose to follow..sobsob..send them off to beach road to take the coach and i sob like a baby..uncontrobally as if they are not coming back..yah i know they are goin for a short trip only, so why the tears..well i'm nvr hme w/o them so how am i suppose to react, i very the manja u noe..hee..So off they went leaving me here to fend fer myself (so d drama eh..hee) ..nomore sleeping partner, nomore waving gdbye when i'm off to werk & nomore disturbing me when i'm in the living rm...i miss u guys..come back real soon plss..but they will be back by this tue..!! yayyy..*clapclap* can't wait..
p.s: at this rate, i dun even wanna think how i'm gonna be when i get married nxt year ...

we had the same STYLE..!!
Happy B'dae Ami
4. 050108 - wif bro permission, i went out..!! wow..hahaa..mcm so d jakun gitu kan..lemme see, went to nenek hse to celebrate Ami b'dae..u're a year older now dear..so dun be noti2..and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U..!! After that we catch midnite movie "american gangster" tetdo jap..so long sey that movie, mcm citer hindustan..!! Before that we met chris, zul, asri & ras at Lau Pa Sat for a late dinner b4 d movie, but tungu punya tungu makanan tak sampai2..it was like, taking ages and we kind of gotten mad cos movie starting soon and d food have yet to arrive..so i said..'jom tip toe jom..' cepatt..!! hehehe..so we left the joint and head for MSGV. We can't say we are leaving wad, obviously they won't let us leave..so no choice..so sorry stall owner..guess LPS is out of bounds for the next mth or two.. hehe..after movie tot of goin bowling which i opted out cos i was hungry & sleepy so very the bad combination..making me grouchy, but majority wins so they went to racce bowling place after bowling place..BUT sumer da tutup...!!! hehehe..god was with me..so we went makan..!! yayy..finallyy..head dwn to Al-Ameen at Wdland and d service there was terrible..Ras wld 2nd me cos the both of us was practically grumbling together as to the way we were being serve..butt hunger took over so we tried to be civil just so we can eat..arhhh..food finalyyy...hehee (this was d very 1st time that we stayed out so late and i really treasured the moments that we spent together dear..hope you had fun too)..and guess wad..my parrot gone missing..!! the cage was OPEN..*sobsob* I must have not close the cage properly when i give amos food ..wonder whether he is alive or even eating, sighh.. Being it's owner i know my parrot character so well..and i pray fer you..but now, it's quiet again..too quiet for me to be at peace with myself.. =_(

2007 / 2008

2007-12-30T22:19:00.000+08:00

2 more days before the clock chimes 12...and thats when we will welcome 2008 ..!! A brand new year, everyone is toking abt it waiting fer it..but fer miself well i'm not too sure whether i shud be happy or sad with the impeding new year.

So far 2007 have been a great year for myself. Well of course i had my fair share of sadness & frustration but i can't deny that there were happy moments fer me too. Lemme see..

2007

i got engage

Lost someone i love, i miss u grandma..really really miss u..

i manage to pursue my studies

i manage to get that license to drive

i met wonderful ppl that i can kol my frends..esp my charm ladies

frendship with joy have withstand 2007 thou there were moments when i think we want to strangle each other..hee hee, but i still LOVE YOU!!!!

saw my bro settle down..

frends settling dwn..

n many more things which i just cant rmbr at the moment..

So now i wonder wad 2008 held fer me. Will it be a gd year or bad yr?? I only know that i nd to work extra harder come 2008. One thing fer sure i dunnoe whether i shud be happy or sad. Cos time past so fast w/o you noticing it w/o u realising it. Mistakes can be made in a blink of an eye and i hope i won't be making any mistakes cos i can be quite noti..no resolution fer me cos i dun thnk i ever manage to accomplish my past resolution so bahh just forget it..!! heh..

so i guess this is it folks..i'm sure everyone had their fair share happiness & sadness in 2007. Rmbr 2007 and treasure the moments that you have gone thru..

May 2008 be a wonderful year for everyone..!!!!!!!!!

Cheerioss..!!!

way happy..

2007-12-22T19:13:00.000+08:00

one good news after another.. i passed..!! hahaa.. didn't know that i could ..manage to achieve a grade that was totally unexpected but bersyukur nonetheless for getting that solid grade..amin..
since i'm feeling so bubbly..enjoy this song.. bubbly...

wedding

2007-12-19T16:52:00.001+08:00

it have been awhile ...a longgg whilee..

So lemme see..wads to be updatted first..

1st thing 1st..my bro have finally settled down..alhamdullilah, hanya dengan satu lafaz..sah lah abang menjadi suami...sobsob...Congratz to my bro & kak iza..hope your wedding will last till eternity..anndddd....i want to be called aunty soon or bibik or tante or mak ngah..so hurry hurry..i want to hear d cries of d lil one soon... !!! *grins*

more pics ..soon i hope..cos d penat all haven't go away...

abg & kak iza thanks joy for being there ..

2007-12-02T21:52:00.000+08:00

i often wonder if i'm too self-centered or too caught up with myself that i often forget abt the existence of others? I dunnoe..i often wonder thou..i just can't figure out wads wrong with myself...am i such a bad person..? spoilt perhaps? i dunnoe..i seldom talk abt stuffs but that doesnt's mean that i dun care or am not aware of my surroundings..i dunnoe whr else can i turn.. so many things on my shoulder but i try to minimise toking abt my sorrow ..now i feel as if too much is on my shoulder..i tried head bangin but it hurt real bad..infact i became sick soon after..

so in other words, i'm simply lost..cos

once again my heart ache n i simply cant breathe..

*with head bent down, she walks away silently with tears down her face*

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There is a girl in the corner crying

Tears swelling in her red eyes

The room is full of other people

But they all just pass her by

For what they see is just not there

A smiling face so bright and clear

The sorrow’s hidden from their sight

They just can’t see the fear

She is slowly disappearing now

They do not see her go

Becoming a part of the darkness

Letting the depression grow

The wall that she created

To protect her from the pain

Has finally turned against her

She will become the slain

No one will come to save her

They do not see her cry

She has given into darkness

And in darkness she will die

There was a girl in the corner

But no longer is she there

She ceases to be living

She had no strength to care

Will anybody miss her

Now that she is gone

Life’s cruel fate has killed her

It played her like a pawn

I know that I will miss her

I just wish that you could see

You knew the girl in the corner

The crying girl was me

2007-12-01T15:09:00.000+08:00

people don't confront each other because it solves anything,
it's about understanding how the other person feels,
because that in itself is a big help...

outing

2007-11-30T09:21:00.000+08:00

Finally the 3 of us manage to meet up after all the sakit and last minute bloopers...hehehe..but it was worth d wait..had tons of fun and lafter and of course cam-whoring..hehehe..nasib batt can last cos i was d only one wif camera..!! Anw i guess we kinda pampered ourselves..but guess we can be pampered even more on d 18th...cos sumone is growing...so we r gonna celebrate her hari kebesaran ryte Ms Rena...hehehe

Rena & dayah i can't upload all d pics here..will update it at multiply...hopefully sumtime soon..so meanwhile be happy with this lot..heart u gals

.Waiting for Ms K .. =D.

.Makan time.

.see red.see us.

.lariiii.

.splish.splosh.

.d charmed ones.

.gd nyte folks.

p.s: sayang pop-up 'unexpectedly' thou i noe dat he was arnd..nonetheless i was still surprise.. love you dearie.. =D

yay

2007-11-29T12:09:00.000+08:00

28 Nov 2007 mark another impt chapter in my life...one item on my wishlist DOWN...woohoooo..

.Ecstatically happy.

Thank you dear for being there throughout one of my most distressing period

i'm calmed by your presence and i succeed cos u're dere with me, for me
thank you sayang
love you to the stars and beyond =D

Darling Joy thank you for the msg..you're the 1st person to know u know..hehehe..so maybe sometime soon..?? you & me..?? hehehe...

To my dearest daddy & mummy..thank you for believing in me... =D

So with that..road users beware..cos here cum Ms Nowe ...woohooo....

wanita

2007-11-24T20:10:00.001+08:00

Dunia..
Sesekali berlaku kejam terhadap kaum wanita
Adakah kerana kami dari golongan yang lemah?
Selalu ditindas dan diperalatkan
Tanpa rasa ikhsan?

Bukankah kamu diberi nyawa dari rahim seorang wanita
Yang kamu panggil Ibu?

Sakitkah hatimu jika ibumu sendiri diseksa dan diperalatkan?
Jikalau benar kamu turut terseksa,
Kenapa kamu tergamak menyeksa kaum wanita yg lain

Sesungguhnyer sesuatu kejadian yang berlaku pasti ader hikmahnya
Tetapi ternyata, walaupun waktu dan zaman beredar
Wanita masih juga ditindas

Bukan ku mahu menegakkan benang yg basah
Ataupun menyatakan bahawa wanita boleh berdiri sama tingi sesama kaum lelaki..
Tidak..kerana lelaki mmg dilahirkan utk menjadi ketua..
Tetapi hanya ingin bertanya, kenapa wanita yg selalu dihukum dan dipandang hina jika sesuatu yg tidak diingini berlaku terhadap mereka?

Wajarkah..? Adilkah..??

Seperti nasib malang gadis Qatif, siapa yg boleh membelanya...kerana keluarga sendiri pun membencinya..

Aku bersyukur kerana mendapat kasih sayang yg tidak berbelah bagi dari ayah, abg, tunangan-ku, pakcik & sedara ku...

..Alhamdulillah..

2007-11-23T17:01:00.001+08:00

I just hate it..hate doin sumthing dat i dun like..i just cant perform..
got no ideaslarr..
cant u see..i HATE doin this thin dat u r asking me to do...
u said i can choose..but when i choose u dun let me..
argghhh...f it lar

anniversary

2007-11-12T20:02:00.000+08:00

What more can i say..a wonderful surprise that was totally unexpected..thank u sayang..

totally blessed..

Happy anniversary sayang ... =)

frends

2007-11-11T09:33:00.000+08:00

Frends..

How do you define frendship. Can you call urself a frend...? Each individual have a unique way of expressing frendship. Do realise that frends will be there for you forever..They will be dere for you when u fall and will also b d one to help you stand up straight with you head held high. So never disregard your frend even for a relationship.

Since you are aware abt it so why continue...Love is eternal but so is frendship, so pls kp that in mind. Treasure your frends cos they are also part of your life journey. Dun just follow ur heart without giving it a tot to some matters...heart after all is heart..can b broken and also be mended..Thou i'm not perfect myself i hope i wun do anything untoward to my frends..cos i treasure them..esp my joy..~~

What you don't want to happen to you, then have d decency and not do it to others..cause remember that wad goes around will come around..maybe not to yourself but to someone dat is dear to you. Cause i've been there..and i'm so humbled by that experience..

but siriusly i DUN CARE if it happens to you...!! oopss..mean mean nowe..heh

On another note, I'm sorry if damages were done..u noe who u r..maybe i'm to angry for you that causes me to say the things i said abt stufs..but just want to let you noe that thou i mite b bz i will always be here for you..so contradicting ehh..?? hehee nvrm u go figure that out..

Well anw..arghh my train of tots have choo-chooed away..damn this tv drama..hehee

Anw JOY is finally home..yay yay..now i dun have to wonder too much...
p.s: i did blog abt you but unfortunately u will not get to see it...love u lar babe..and see u on WED!!!

2007-11-09T22:42:00.000+08:00

before i forget...

GOOD LUCK FER THE EXAMS guyss...!!!

And to my dearest..all d best
so proud of eu.. *muackzs*

And good luck to miself as well..!! GooD Luck NOWEee!!!!!!!!

should i be upset or should i not...?

2007-11-08T17:30:00.001+08:00

Rising trend..?

I read this article about an artist from one of our neighbouring country. She is neither here nor there..i mean her popularity...Well anyway, she is someone 2nd wife now. I dun really want to fault much IF people CHOOSE to be someone 3rd party and in other term, someone's 'madu' but the way she defend herself..well hrmm..if every female think LIKE her..then what will happen to female like US...??

She said something like this,"which woman can accept the fact of polygamy in their life, but she believe that she can be fair and that this is her fate. Who can question fate..? That is being set by god. And thus we must accept our fate as given by god. In islam, man are allowed to have up to 4 wives if they can be fair and just, so why not...? I don't mind to be criticize cause this is my life".

Whooaaa there..word check..you are a woman too so why do u say like that..? R u so unfeeling towards species of the same kind. Before you can say that this is fate, you have the option of choosing so why did you choose this path when you know right from the start that he is someone's else husband..? There might be reason to all of this SOOoo why can't you be more discreet with your words. So bold and loud...

Are the males population so limited that you choose to go for someone's else partner..?? If you say that he is good ohh please cut the crap..you are just being bitchy and pounching on the open vulnerability of someone else...

I know that this is not my business nor do i know you...but in cases like this..it's always because the marriage is on the rocks and the partner went astray..before they can find the ryte path, people like you came along....

Like i once said..Love is something sacred, dont spoil it for your own happiness. The option to choose is always there. Don't keep saying that all this is from Allah. Ohhh soo.. part cintan cintun pandai pakai nama Allah..tapi bab ugama, hancus..lupa segala2 nyer...kalau nak pakai nama Allah kenalar adil dan tau diri..jangan ikot sedap suka hati.

But i guess this is the rising trend..What's on the shelf is no longer consider a gooddeal whereas what's NOT on the shelf is something hot & wanted..

I pray and wish that all this will not befall me, my family and my beautiful frends..insya'allah..

*+*+*

..Loving hym Loving us..

2007-11-08T11:51:00.000+08:00

MAYA ANGELOU'S' BEST POEM EVER

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
.. a youth she's content to leave behind....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
... enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own, even if she never wants to or needs to...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
...something perfect to wear if the employer, or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
... a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
. .. a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
one friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
.... a good piece of furniture not pre viously owned by anyone else in her family...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
... eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal, that will make her guests feel honored...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
... a feeling of control over her destiny.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW
... how to fall in love without losing herself.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW
... how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without; ruining the friendship..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW
... when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW
... that she can't change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her paren ts..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW
... that her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW
... what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW
... how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW
.. whom she can trust, whom she can't, and why she shouldn't take it personally...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW
.. where to go... be it to her best friend's kitchen table... or a charming inn in the woods... when her soul needs soothing...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW
... what she can and can't accomplish in a day... a month...and a year...

Hari Raya with the SR7- ians

2007-11-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

The man in my Life

Ok i've been procrastinating for sooo longg..n finally this is UP!!..yayy..

Was quite a well plan outing that i was kinda looking forward too, but unfortunately i was a bit quiet dat day n wanna noe why..cos i was SLEEPYY!! geezz...but mainly oso i cant toktok to ms dayah n ms rena. Ms Rena didn't manage to join this outhing ..sighh...then wanna tok to ms dayah..mcm maner nak start..bila nak start ader ajer interruption or was dat my feelings only ms dayah..??

Well ms dayah n ms rena..after exams..jommm...?? =)

*******

At the very 1st hse..whr muka sumer masih FRESH..!! hehe

ms dayah & ms nowe presenting ms Riani..

The pic taken by the lil photographer

one of the beautifuL Lady...

Kecoh habis..!!

ok dun move..!! rmbr this ladies..?? hehe

The other beautifuL Lady

BeautifuL Ladies..babes in my Life
i cant get enuf of this fat cat..~
Ladies for the day

Ms Hana..my sleeping buddy..hehe

Loving him..Loving us..

Apple or Orange?

2007-11-03T08:49:00.000+08:00

I often wonder why guys go for the bad girls? I find that guys prefer an apple compared to an orange. Haha..ok i noe this is not much of a comparison..but think abt it..apple, nice n red on the outside but it doesn't necessarily mean that it is juicy and nice when eaten. Cos u can't tell a rotten apple until when u actually tried to eat it. Whereas for orange, there is nothing appealing to it, rough skin texture and sometimes it even lack colour but have you ever heard a worm in an orange before??

So what am i trying to say here..? No this is nuthing that got to do with me..again just one of my random tots...

Cos i realise guys and gals oso (but gals is not the topic here!!) only go for the outlook. Guys want a pretty gf w/o even thinking if she is someone nice. Thou i admit looks is equally important but i just dun see why guys go for someone pretty but got no heart n brain..?? Dun sincerity and love matters animore in this lifetime?

If given a choice btw a gd n a bad girl..why would guys leave a gd n nice gal to be with the bad one...? Is it because they are scared that they can't treat the nice gal ryte?? ...

Hrmm..i siriusly cant answer that..maybe guys do have their own reason, but for a girl it just dun make much sense..??!! Well why this entry, cos i see too many injustice done to innocent girls, who gave their heart but was given a slap instead...Guess this is life, nothing can be perfect..if everthing is so perfect than i guess this ain't LIFE..

gurindam jiwa

2007-10-29T22:43:00.000+08:00

When your ex come knocking on your door, i'm sure memories of the past will come back to haunt you..will you start comparing..? Should i be afraid..should i feel threatened..? Am i implying this to myself..? guess not cos dis may be one of my random entry..

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One of my old time favourites....

Tuai padi antara nampak
Esok jangan layu layuan
Intai kmi antara nampak
Esok jangan rindu rinduan

Anak cina pasang lukah
Lukah dipasang di tanjung jati
Di dlm hati tidak ku lupa
Sebagai rambut bersampul mati

Batang selasih permainan bdk
Daun selasih dimakan kuda
Bercerai kasih talak tiada
Seribu tahun kembali juga

Burung mertapi terbang seribu
Hinggap seekor di tengah laman
Hendak mati di hujung kuku
Hendak berkubur di tapak tangan

Kalau tuan mudik ke hulu
Carikan saya bunga kemboja
Kalau tuan mati dulu
Tunggu saya di pintu syurga

tired lady

2007-10-27T00:29:00.000+08:00

I'm one tired lady..well who arent ryte..

I just nd to dig a burrow and hide my head in it..

cos i want to turn my back on everything dats causing me al dis stress..

I noe wads lacking...but do u..??

How deep is ur love?

2007-10-26T00:11:00.000+08:00

Lately i rarely tune in to radio nor watch tv. So at work when i nd to kp my creativity flowing, i tune in to this radio chnl..not really disturbing just wondering abt it amidst my tite dateline..

The topic was about love dedication if i'm not wrong. Where you can share ur feelings annonymously. This is not sumthing new but to kp hearing abt it, have since kept me thinking..so how deep is ur love?

What do u understand about love? How sacred is love to u? Do you fall in and out of love easily? I mean i dun understand how this can be so..I thought love is sumthing special something that you've found in ur love ones that is irreplaceable..so why d stutter when u c sumone new? Where was d once Love vows that u promise till eternity?

Dun u realise dat love is sumthing pure that if you've find it you must scope it up with ur bare hands & treasure it, so how can u say that u've met sumone else and fallen in love with him / her.. Now that is ridiculous. I'm not here to judge anyone but pls can't u think..?

Love is sumthing wonderful something sacred..Treasure love like u treasure ur own life.. Don't snatch sumone's else Love if u really know what love is all about..Life is too short for you to waste love just like that..

For myself, i can only pray to Allah to allow me to be with my dear..now till forever..
Insya'allah..

think

2007-10-23T19:12:00.000+08:00

You WILL only think when you feel threaten
You WON'T think when you are not threaten
YOU think i like to THINK..??
YOU think i got nothing better than to keep THINKing?
Now i WANT you to think why i like to THINK!!

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My existence = Vapour
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Allah

2007-10-21T23:19:00.000+08:00

Bila Allah cepat makbulkan doamu, maka dia menyayangimu.
Bila dia lambat makbulkan doamu, maka dia ingin mengujimu.
Bila dia tidak makbulkan doamu, maka dia merancang sesuatu yg baik buatmu
Oleh itu sentiasalah bersangka baik kepadaNYA dalam apa jua keadaan karena kasih sayang Allah itu mendahului kemurkaanNYA

gd nyte~

Raya

2007-10-20T00:12:00.000+08:00

So this yr theme is lavendar..dun ask why daddy dearest is not in d same color ..longg storyyy..hehee..

And i siriusly cant understand why i smiled like this...??!!

Iftar

2007-10-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

Iftar wif the ppl that is going to help mould the future generation..sadly d lovely ones were unable to make it..

karting challenge

2007-10-19T23:58:00.000+08:00

Words elude me ..so i guess i will let the picture tell it all...

Happy viewing...
karting challenge..d real challenge is to not to break FAST!! hee

Salam Lebaran

2007-10-15T19:51:00.000+08:00

At the blink of an eye, ramadan have come and gone. Seem as if it was just yesterday that i have started fasting and now syawal have arrived. I am truly humble by all that have happened. Though i am still the stubborn opinionated me but this is truly one of the most humbling period.

This year i celebrate syawal as sumone fiancee, and insya'allah in two years time, i will be legally bound bind & tied..hehehe..so i guess dis yr i am slowly preparing myself for that..so that when the time comes ..i wont be such a cry baby...

Anyway, this year celebration was just a normal celebration..maybe on a smaller scale..cos my beloved nenek is no longer around. Was so sad..i really miss u grand mama..wish you were here.. wish that you are still around..your presence is greatly missed.. =_(

Yah i know this is somewhat belated..a long belated entry..so many updates to be done but i just dun wish to do so..have no idea why, most of the time i will just sit in front of my pc or can i say now my very own lappie..type safe n then delete it..hehe..

Just a very quick update b4 i chng my mind again...i did sumthing to my hair, got one wishlist dwn, help my beloved mummy making kuih tart half way b4 i run off for karting challenge, went to bazaar with dearie on mlm raya n i realie love it..n i miss u, yesh you..its over a mth now since i last saw you..you noe who u r..so very sad..we r soo near but yet so far apart...haizz...

pics oh yesh i got loads of them..just have to stop being lazy n try to get my acts together..

Anyway SeLamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri peeps..i hope i'm not too late...nowe menyusun sepuluh jari meminta maaf andai kata2 nowe meyinggung perasaan maner2 pihak. Dan sempena bulan yg mulia ini, nowe berharap kalian semua berbahagialar disamping insan tercinta.

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There's some truth when ppl say, "you will only be appreciated when you are no longer around"...and with this i look down in shame with tears streaming down my face..

finalii

2007-10-06T07:20:00.000+08:00

alryty i've check my werk an in total i got 3essay totalling up to 3400words..dun understand why got 400 extra..ermm can round it up to 3000words instead?? hehe..all to be submitted in one months time..goodness..how am i goin to fine time to do all this..got event coming up soonnn..sighh.. plus grp work n exam.. ok whining too much..will think positive..which i soo cant at the moment..haha..

Well anw i'm FINALI goin to do my tag thingy..by rena like ermm 2 to 3 weeks back..?? hehe..sorry babe..so here goes..

lemme see...

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Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself.People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
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1. I like to look at beautiful people but dont like to be told to look like them
2. May seem like a talker but am a quiet person by nature
3. Will run away when my frend meet their frend..too shy to stnd arnd n b the lamp post (hahaa)
4. Prefer to pretend and agree with the crowd even when i'm clueless about what the conversation is all abt
5. Will often say that i am fat but don't like to be told by others that i AM fat
6. Cannot concentrate for long n log into dreamland..
7. Am quite a glutton and want to eat whateva food that i can get my hands on
8. Love reading storybooks but my english shucks..
9. Very possesive by nature
10. I can converse in Javanese language, but very slowwleee...

Pheww..finaly i'm done..
So with this i TAGGED whoeva reads my blog..!!! Its quite fun..try it..see if u can figure out ur tots..cos most of my tots above might be temporarily..hehehee..

huh

2007-10-04T05:50:00.000+08:00

In around one week 2days time, we will be celebrating Hari Raya Aidilfitri. I don't know why but how come i don't feel the joy..?? Even when i hear d song over the radio, i will be like..hrmm yah..ok..no other song isit..?? Ok i guess something is wrong with me i dunnoe..?? Heh..well my beloved seem to be happy enuf with the impending day coming nearer, baru puasa da sibuk nyanyi lagu raya..haha..but still i'm not affected by IT!! urgghh...guess i nd to c a doctor and check my brain n see if it's in d ryte season or not..

Guess wad, after all d sighing and deep soul searching, i didn't get myself a DKNY nor a COACH bag..i got miself another bag altogether..hahahaha..ouhhh...told ya my brain is damaged..so fickle minded..

So many things to do..i've been tagged but yet to do it..sorry Ms Zulaiha, will do it soon..i hope i guess..hehehe..so many things on my brain ryte now..but the most impt thing is the 4500word that i need to complete in like a mths time...though given a mth i'm not too sure if i can handle it..iskk..stress stress stress...

in a diLemma

2007-09-22T09:08:00.000+08:00

I am in a diLemma...
shouLd i buy miseLf a

COACH BAG..

OR

DKNY BAG..?

SiriusLy..i'm in a diLemma..cos i need to make my decision SOON..!!
hrmmm...

Oh yah they have the same price plus both look nice...d reason dat put me in a spot..